I have been up all night not able to sleep. I have been thinking about my family, my kids, my Barrett. I didn't nurse him today. He's 11 months old. He's growing up. He's not my baby anymore and next thing I will know he'll be going to school and I will be all alone at home. I am missing him and all my kids already. I love them all. I feel so lucky that they chose me to be their mother. Thank you boys, I find it a great honor to be your mother. Tonight I am dwelling on the end of an era for me. No more little tiny babies in my home. Although they are all growing up I will never forget the feeling of holding my baby close to me, rocking them to sleep and the feeling of their head laying on my shoulder, singing hush little baby and you are my sunshine, the sounds of your baby laughs when I tickle your fat. I love you boys!
